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            There's not much wrong with being like that when nobody ever seriously wants to be with you anyway, one could think. No risk for anyone. There's at least one caveat to that view, however: How do you know nobody does? How certain can you really be about that? The truth is, you can't, no matter how implausible it appears from your perspective. You never know everything someone else sees in you.

Once you realise people might be interested in you, and the clearer it becomes this happens more often, more quickly and more intensely than you would have believed to be reasonable or even possible. For good reasons or not so good ones. At that point you also need to realise that you carry... a burden, I'd almost have called it. That's not true. A burden doesn't have upsides. But you do find yourself holding responsibility suddenly. Responsibility you might not be prepared for. Suddenly you're not playing games anymore - you're living a life instead. The rules are different here, and also more strictly enforced. You need to be much more careful who you talk to now, how close you let other people get. Relearning how to talk to people, how not to talk to them, and also how to not talk to people, in way that doesn't look like a punishment to them.

There's always some growing to do of course; if you're looking for something to be improved about yourself, you'll always find something. Except, this kind is different. Saying yes, saying no, meaning what you said, and sticking to that. What it ultimately comes down to, is the question "Do you want to get good at the game, and do you have at least an idea how you might accomplish that?" 
Whether that idea actually will work, only time can tell, of course, but you need to have an idea. Better still, more than one. First of all, for any of that to work, you need to know what you want.

It's the kind of question, where there really is one correct answer only: "Yes." If your answer is, "Maybe", "I don't know", or anything like that, then it's really only viable to acknowledge that and stop playing. Not to play is the only way to win as they say. At least at this point in time.

Taken in: Germany / Northrhine-Westphalia / Kreisfreie Stadt Düsseldorf / Stadtbezirk 03 (show map)

Taken on: June 18, 2024

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